Dear Diary,
Okay, so wow, my life is soooo crazy sometimes. I had to babysit Adam and his half brother and sister. And his sister is only 2 years younger then me, so it's like babysitting my brother Warren. Crazy huh? But anyway, all the kids did were either fight or whine! The only reason I'll be continuing the job is for the money, which I'll be saving till I can afford my contacts! I can't wait to buy them! Ooh I'm so excited! I should be able to afford them by at least October! I know the job is a good witnessing tool, but it's SOOOO hard to keep my cool. I wish people didn't spoil their kids so much! It's like "Have you heard of discipline????" Gosh, I hate it when people don't spank their kids. I would do it for them! lol! Not to be mean, but the kids need some discipline. I think I've figured the problem out though, diary. These kids that are the most whiny and spoiled, are the ones who sit in front of a tv the most. You don't see amish kids, [or kids who don't watch tv or don't have one] whine like that. What if, the innocent little children of our day are being brainwashed? And the teachers wonder why most of the students have ADHD! I admit, I have a pretty bad attention span, but that doesn't mean i cant constraint if I must. Well, as soon as I marry and have babies, just you wait, my kids will be different! Anyway, how is Austin doing you ask? Well, actually, I don't know. He never wrote or anything. I only have contact with his sister. :( Which makes it really tough. Maybe it's a sign of some sort. But i do not understand, every single time i get a chance at love it fails. I hate it, all i wanted was to love, and be loved at the same time. Will my dreams ever come true? Maybe I should just give up. I wanna run back to Luke so bad. So many times my fingers just try and type him an email, which always ends up in the trash. Every time I try, its like something inside is stopping me. Maybe it's God, i don't know anymore. My life is so confusing. But I can trust the Lord.
                                                                          Lizzy